*Sigh*

I am getting ready to go the local retirement community to have an opportunity to serve through music... I feel so inadequate and unworthy today.  But it will be good to focus on others.  I will go, using the gifts God has given me, but somehow it feels less than my best.


Worship was good this morning... a few more of my "go to" songs were appropriately sung (Blessed Be Your Name, Hosanna- Paul Baloche I love him, Hear Us From Heaven).  I must keep my eyes on Him. 


Why is it such a battle these days?  The loneliness that has set in is almost unbearable.  Actually, it is a little scary.  I haven't struggled with this in as long as I can remember, believe it or not.  This is the first time in years we have not been invited somewhere to watch the Superbowl.  My oldest is going to a church party and my youngest two have been invited to go watch the game with their daddy... is Jesus trying to kill me?  I don't want to be alone today... again.


I'm sure I will be checking in later... off now to attempt to make other people happy.