Heart Cry

Jesus, You continue to amaze me with Your unwavering, tenacious patience. Outside of Your love, it is Your patience that continues to truly awe me.  I want to see Your heart for me and not the pain of this life. May I see YOUR plan for me clearly and vividly. Cause me to desire it above my plans.  I know what I think is best for me (or rather, what I think I want)... but I also know that You have said my heart deceives me. Cause me to want what You want for me...  

You have said Your plans are to prosper me... change what I think prospering looks like. Deliver me from the plans of the enemy. Severe those things in my life which do not bring You glory... this is SO hard, even painful, to pray tonight.  Jesus, I am in FACT, desperate for You whether I recognize it, or "feel" it.  

Grant me the gift of repentance and Godly sorrow...  Transform me into Your likeness for YOUR glory, not mine.  Remind me, often, that apart from You I can do nothing. Give me a heart for YOU and YOU ALONE.  You alone are worthy... cause me to KNOW my need to surrender. Deliver me from me.  Cause me to trust that Your heart is toward me.  You ARE good... remind me often.  Show me that You ARE, indeed, enough; that Your grace is sufficient. 

In Your goodness, cover me in grace and an abundance of mercy... I can NOT do this without You.  I do not know how to start over... I haven't a clue what that even means or looks like. I know that it is You I need as my husband, best friend and lover. How will You do this? I believe, but help me in my unbelief.

In many ways, I feel like I am even starting over with You. Take what I thought I knew of You, seal what is true, and change my mind about ANYthing that is not... deliver me from any and all deceptions.  Show me things with which I have come into agreement that are not of or from You; and then give me the strength and courage to break them by the power of Your name.  Take my unthinkable sins and redeem them, somehow.  Heal and restore relationships that You want healed and restored.

Cause me to know, desire and then walk in truth... I want to worship You in spirit and in truth, with a pure and clean heart.  Wash me that I might be whiter than snow. 

Give me Your grace, forgiveness and patience, that I may give grace, forgiveness, and patience to those who may not/will not extend the same to me...

One thing I ask, one thing I seek: I want to dwell in the house of the Lord forever...

I bring these things to You, in the ONLY name in which there is grace, power, and true love: Jesus.